Please don't leave me!
Hearing: "Your Song" from Moulin RougeWearing: see prev
Feeling like: Right now
Tuesday, Sept. 17, 2002
Okay, so the buzz is this. This is what just happened I told Nate that i really liked him and that I wanted to know what the deal was. If he like me or if the whole ting was pointless. Here's how it all happened:"NatedogCool: I've kind of 'sensed' that you liked me
NatedogCool: sometimes...
Sopralto2319: well Know you know for sure.
NatedogCool: and that's why I was so interested in playing tennis with you, and trying to go to that movie with you (dumb employee meeting) and all that...
Sopralto2319: because I liked you?
NatedogCool: but if you're talking 'boyfriend' status... I'm really not sure what to think about that... because I really am just here in Alamosa temporarily
Sopralto2319: No I don't think I'm ready for that
Sopralto2319: that's why I'said I don't really want a boyfriend
Sopralto2319: :-)
NatedogCool: I mean, I obviously like you back...
NatedogCool: you would know if I didn't like you!
Sopralto2319: define "like"
NatedogCool: well, the physical attraction is there, I would say, and you are pretty fun to hang around with
NatedogCool: that kind of like
Sopralto2319: physical attraction? That's a first, actually this is all a first
Sopralto2319: thanks for clearing that up.
Sopralto2319: I"m sorry if I totaly just freaked you out
NatedogCool: haha
NatedogCool: maybe just a tiny bit...
NatedogCool: :-S
NatedogCool: I'm not really sure what to say..
NatedogCool: but if you mean you'd like to go out on a few dates and see what happens, that's cool with me!
NatedogCool: definitely
Sopralto2319: yeah that would be cool
NatedogCool: but I can't promise much...
NatedogCool: as you know, I'm kind of emotionally whacked right now, and I'm looking for the first chance I can get to get out of this town...
NatedogCool: so I don't want you to be hurt ... I just want you to understand that...
Sopralto2319: I totally understand that. I realized that right away, and at first I wasn't going to persue anything but then something told me that I should
NatedogCool: You can't say that 'it's a first' though...
Sopralto2319: what do you mean?
NatedogCool: I'm sure plenty guys have been attracted to you
NatedogCool: you have a stalker, ... I've never had one
Sopralto2319: it's funny b/c I'm actually laughing really REALLY hard
Sopralto2319: That and Kevin is in the room right now
NatedogCool: is Kevin the stalking man?
Sopralto2319: yes"
I was so wired that crystal and I walked around the dorms about 7 times. I'm so scared. What if this turns into more and then he has to leave and that would just suck? What if it turns out that we go out and he realizes that he doesn't really like me? What if things get weird? What if if kills Nev and me? What if. . . If only this were a perfect world.
